so no.. I did not work Wednesday..

well.. not all of Wednesday..
I got prepped at my own pace and ended up late to work.. but they were all happy to see me.. 
they all asked how I felt. 
I explained that I was 'better' - I think they took that to mean best.. 100%.. all good..
no.. only better than I was.. not 100%.. 
I had so many things on my list for the day.. any other day I might have excepted the challenge..
but this day it already seemed overwhelming.. 
I worked at a comfortable pace, wasn't going to overdo myself..
I knew if I pushed too hard, I'd regress.. I'd go backwards on my improvements.. 

well, that's exactly what happened.  we had 4 morning appts, and 4 afternoon appts
the other 85 were for the other doctor - the hygienist.. 
these 4 were for the good Dr - and they were back-to-back on top of each other.. no breaks.. 

I finally made it to lunch.. just barely. that was my first goal. 
I had told myself I'd try to make it to lunch and see how I felt.. 
I gobbled up my food (no issues with my appetite anymore)
once I walked back into the building, the dizziness returned. 
so did the weakness in my legs. I had worn myself out. 
I used up all my strength in half a day.

I tried my best to drink water, make sure it wasn't dehydration issue. 
I sat down as much as possible to regain. 
one girl said she had that same problem her first day back at work..
but I didn't have covid.. 3 negative tests and no fever...
this was something else entirely.

our appointments started again.. I got the first one..
I got them into the room and reviewed pet history.
I advised the good Dr about the pet, she had me add another item onto her appt list.
she was still busy working on something so I went back to my desk. 
because.. trying to sit as much as possible. 

I was to teach one of the girls how to prepare the bottle of a prescription.. 
I told her how to mix it up. I asked if the label was completed. 
I was told it was not, so I went back to my desk until I could finish teaching how to prepare the bottle. 
come to find out it WAS ready so I was going to continue teaching..
the good Dr told me to explain, not do.. my brain heard her, but it was automatic to 'do'
I stopped myself. but not before the good Dr had seen me doing and started yelling. 

I explained that I was trying. I was trying to get through the day. and I did not think I was ready to come back. that I came back too soon. 
she told me to go home - she'd seen me doing too many mistakes and I should go home.
I don't even know what those mistakes were. 

I dropped it all and went home. I left a note at my desk of where I was on the list, and what was left to do. I grabbed my things and went home. 
I had meant to stop at the clinic on the way home to schedule an appointment to find out what was going on. I was so focused on not being at work, that I drove straight home. 

Thursday we went monthly grocery shopping.. I walked at my own pace, helping put things into the cart, finding things in the store. once we got home I called the clinic to get an appointment. my local clinic did not have any openings for over a week. their other clinic 41 miles away, was able to get me in the next morning.. so I took that appointment. 

I left the house at 9:30 for 10:14 appt. there is major construction traffic in I-5.. so of course I was late.
:(  so.. I had to wait my turn, after all the other people who were on time. I watched the whole lobby clear out.. and new patients started showing up. I had an hour wait, then a nurse took my vitals. another 15 minute wait, and another nurse got me into a room, checked my weight, and took a finger prick test- glucose reading and iron test. both of which were normal. 
the doctor came in and asked a few pictures again. then he listened to my heart and lungs. all good. he did notice in my past records that I had come in May 2020 for extreme fatigue. at that time I was told to rest and decrease my stress - ha! fat chance. this doctor ordered lab work and sent me to the building next door since I was already fasted (17 hours! I had planned ahead!)
I walked to the next building - and the phlebotomist was on lunch... argh.. 
I sat in my car to charge my phone a bit.  then sat inside to wait my turn. 
quick. bada bing, bada boom. she pulled blood, I peed in a cup. I went home. 
well. I stopped at McDs for food. I was starving!! I shoulda brought a granola bar. 

Saturday is such a blur. flew by like a flash. I was supposed to work.. but no. stayed home another day.

Sunday I planned for working Monday.. told myself I could do this..
well, Sunday night I hardly slept at all. woke up with 3 hours of sleep (if even that..)
I got dressed for work this morning - which wore me out. I took 2 naps today. 2 long naps.