take the good with the bad? if one outweighs the other?

so.. Ron called for his EBT last Thursday. they told him he'd get his back pay on Friday.. then he'd get his June EBT money on the 2nd. well, he went to get soda Friday to test it. no luck. we went to buy soda yesterday to test it, on our way to buy groceries. no money 🤬

he'll be going to the commodity food pickup Wednesday.. for some food from the county food bank.

I paid the cash I had towards my acct last Friday. a whopping $68 ☹️

I got a statement in my email over the weekend that I owed. first thing this morning she told me I have a balance to be paid. no duh! 

my pets AREN'T coming back. there are no employee benefits! I don't have the money to bring them in - if I'm not getting discounts!  my balance is $1312.80, and my reimbursement check is $896.93. and then that doesn't even include the $450 for the echo from the cardiologist. he hasn't even billed me, but insurance isn't going to pay the whole $450. how would I afford the anesthetic dental?? I hope my insurance check comes today, then I can pay that Wednesday and lower my balance. it will start accruing interest now. 

then I ordered a phone case for his cellphone for low income. that came Friday - but so did an email stating his phone will be turned off June 15th because the program ran out of funding. I also bought myself a case for the at&t tablet that I was going to use since he got a tablet last year for low income - his tablet is also getting turned off June 15th since it's the same non-funded program 🤦

in HAPPIER news, we may have a new hunter cat in our yard. something brought me part of the head of a bird. when I checked cameras from Saturday, there was a stray cat hunting the gophers/ground squirrels in our front yard. I haven't even been putting food out since December 28th. but Ron thinks that cat had been stealing from Grey's bowl and is hoping to pay me in carcasses so I'll put more food out. 

this is a long week. 4 days instead of 3 (last Friday was over 14 hours.. I got home just after midnight) so I'm trying to make it through. next week will be just 2 days of work again. 

I can do this 😖