LIFE is a battlefield - it’s a war zone!

the veterinary industry is a tough one. whether saying goodbye to a patient you’ve known since their first appt, or dealing with difficult customers. it’s a very high suicide rate.

but what they don’t mention is staffing conflict - more specifically, conflict with the manager/vet.  that is a BIG cause for suicide. it isn’t the fun job that you think it would be. it causes great stress that I don’t sleep at night. it doesn’t help I’m dealing with menopause that causes loss of sleep.. between the two I basically get NO sleep. 

but oh the stress has INCREASED!  we’ve had to get new homeowners insurance each year the past few years because each company decides to leave California —and then the car insurance company left California. we have Ca Fair Plan for house insurance and Ca Low Cost Auto for car insurance. the mortgage states we need to have windstorm coverage. in shopping for car insurance we found that we DO have windstorm coverage. he sent the proof to the mortgage co. we got our auto insurance at the last moment - LITERALLY!! but now I find our mortgage is increasing by $360! I suspect the mortgage didn’t find our proof and put us on a mandatory coverage - a policy we don’t need!!

I brought my kitty to the vet last week for her exam and labwork and xrays, and then again for the cardiologist. at which point I find my checking acct is empty. gone. zero. thankfully the cardiologist didn’t charge me because I work for the vet. he only charges if you have insurance (which I do - but I couldn’t afford to pay him up front to wait for reimbursement)  I haven’t paid the vet bill yet  I’m sure that comes with medications and stuff to make me more in debt. it has to be paid by May 30th

oh and I mailed my tax returns Apr 11 (stupid pin code.. I can’t submit online)  and my state return still hasn’t reached Sacramento. it’s been 3 weeks!!!

and then we tried to use my man’s ebt card for a small amount of groceries yesterday, before the big trip off the mtn for groceries tomorrow. his ebt cat has not been updated because he needs to provide proof of income - he has no proof! so our monthly grocery bill will go on the credit card.  again. argh.

so yeah. saying I’m stressed doesn’t even begin to explain. 😭

 

I will most likely be getting another job in summer (no summer vacation for me…). so, more work (I’m already exhausted) means even less sleep and more stress for me. 

I’m done!

that’s it!

I need to retire already!