I know I haven't written in ages.

time has flown by.. Ron had his surgery October 10th.. I did a 5k walk October 13.. he had to get through the post op crap (and I mean.. "crap") he's still dealing with a crap.. 
Thanksgiving was at his mom AND my sister. Christmas was at his mom, and my mom ? my phone stopped working that day - a lovely fluke.. we did end up finding my mom at my sister's (thanks to my brother.. the ONLY one of the family I could connect with..) New Years was spent at home.. a quiet.. low-key day at home..  January flew as slow as mud, like it usually does..

February I looked forward to having my birthday day off work.. that was another low key day at home. we had bought some duck to make for dinner. it was put in the fridge to rest for several days.. but not quite long enough. it needed 1 day more.. so we ate it 1 day late.. I colored my hair that same day.. pink. I colored it pink.. didn't turn out as well as I'd hoped. more of highlights than the actual whole head like I wanted.. but oh well.. live 'n' learn. back at work on Friday to look forward to a weekend. then Sunday I went shopping with my mom, 2 of my sisters, and my niece.. that was fun. we had breakfast at Black Bear Diner, then shopping around the nearby outlet mall. I had a lot of fun, and "splurged" on waffles with eggs and sausage (after being sugar-free since mid-June).

the next morning felt, murderous.. 
I woke up 10 minutes before I needed to - and everything was too bright. 
I closed my eyes for a couple more minutes - actually an hour and a half later.. 
crawled up the stairs to the phone to call my boss. 
miserable migraine. 
she said to come in later if I felt better.. 
but.. that was 3 weeks ago (3 weeks, minus 2 days).. 

I went to a doctor after 2 days because things were not improving. 
she gave me a pain injection, and prescription pain killers. which did nothing.
6 days later I went back to see if she could prescribe something else that might work.. 
what she "prescribed" was to take Tylenol and go to the emergency room for a CT Scan. 
emergency room? do you know how expensive that is? 
I tried calling the Radiology Center 60 miles away but they would not see me without a referral through my insurance. 
so.. I contacted the clinic receptionist - no referral, I'm supposed to go to the emergency room. 
the following week - I went to another clinic (same "family" of medical offices) to try to get a referral or other options of what to do.. he prescribed extra-strength ibuprofen and gave me a referral for an MRI. 2 days later the Radiology Center called me to schedule it - pending my insurance approval. 

I went to work yesterday to do some paperwork, make some money (I hadn't been to work in almost 3 weeks.. used up all my sick and vacation time.. I have nothing left). that afternoon, Ron emailed me to let me know that my MRI appointment was canceled as my insurance rejected the referral.

so, still have my headache.. the Ibuprofen does nothing, just like the Nortriptyline, and Vanquish and Excedrin, and Tylenol, and Imitrex, and Toradol..  

I'm at my wit's end with frustration.. 
I should go to work Monday to make money.. but yesterday hurt my head so much and wore me out.. 
I should go to the doctor - again.. but what will they do next? 
they haven't done much of any testing.. a blood test? eye test? 
I have normal blood pressure and temperature.. 
one doctor check pupil reflex. 2nd doctor test my hand eye coordination.. 
and then what? I don't know what they should do.
if I did, I wouldn't be in this situation..