August 10th

ah.. a restful Monday. I like it.
We went to bed at 11:33.. woke up at 9:30. it was fantastic!
I actually woke up at 8:40 (with a few wake-ups in the night) but lay there listening to Dodger Dog barking next door for another hour, half asleep - half awake. Then I lay in bed for another 20 minutes before getting up to shower. In the shower, my right index finger was going numb. I would have guessed it was something with how I was sleeping -- except it was fine before going into my shower, and fine once I came out of my shower.. so something about the hot water, or how I moved my arm to wash my hair was cutting off circulation I guess 😬

Today we were planning to go to see cousin Tracy in town.. she has the same feelings Ronnie does about his father.. about what kind of man he is. We also planned to go to Simi on Sunday to see him.. but I'll see if plans change. We slept so long today, and Ronnie has class at 2, that there may not be enough time to see Tracy and Chuck now. I was kind of leaning towards "I can't go to work because we have family plans.." well, that didn't really happen.. 😏

I really do love being home.. my "work" life really cuts into my "home" life.. and I don't really have an options to change that. I have thought long and hard about school to change my profession. It's not something I'd be able to complete by year end (less than 4 months away..) and the way I 'feel' on my days off, I don't think I'd be accomplishing much school, thereby making it take even longer than it has to.. torturing me because I hate school.. always have.. 
My other conundrum is that I am paying all the bills.. my debt to income ratio might be wearing thin. If I don't qualify for student loans (or qualify for an affordable interest rate) I'll be torturing myself more with extra debt to pay back. So I don't know how well that will work out.

I'm still mad that my work interrupts MY time off to try to get me to come in to work. Being home, I don't think about work, I don't stress about work.. and then someone messages me, and I get sucked back in and all stressed out 😞

During his first class I watched Accidentally Engaged (2016). it was a typical Hallmark kind of movie.. small town girl, big city actor.. I liked it, but it is at that level of entertainment.

During his 2nd class I watched Good Boy (2003). I've watched it a few times, always a good one 😊 I mean, how can I not love a dog movie?
I finished a candy apple I started a couple months ago.. it was covered in caramel and chocolate with little m&m type candies. I had eaten most of the m&ms and most chocolate leaving a bit of caramel on the granny smith apple. just finished off the rest of it today. it was sweet, but nothing is too sweet for me ((afterwards I had several spoons of chocolate fudge sauce.. so, yeah, nothing's too sweet for me.. I only stopped because Ronnie had finished his class and was about to catch me)) 😝

Tomorrow, I go back to work.. but just for 1 day. I'm off Wednesday so I get a bit of reprieve. I like that I get breaks in between. I only work 3 days now, so I appreciate greatly that they are not 3 consecutive days.
I *should* be home by 8 each night.. I mean, I'm scheduled until anywhere between 7:00 and 7:20.  so I shouldn't still be at work after 9:00, right? right.
on my days off, we eat at a "normal" dinner time. but on my work days, I'm eating at 10:30 or 11:00. that isn't fair. I'm already hungry by 5:30.. which is really frustrating to be stuck at work waiting for my 'freedom'.

then I tried to watch Jurassic City (2015) -- couldn't get through it.. too lame 🐉🐲

so I watched Pixies (2015) -- VERY cute 🧝

I got so spoiled last week. yeah, Ronnie was super busy. but I still got to spend lots of time with him.. and the puppers and the kitty-purrs. no schedule.. just do what I wanted when I wanted.. things have calmed down a little for him, but he still has a steady schedule, classes every day.. packages every week.