February 19th

I'm officially old-er.. 

47 now..

you're only as young as you feel - and I feel it.. 

I feel that 47..

I feel old.. 

and I think I LOOK it too 😫

yuck..

there's no going back now..

in bed at midnight-ish.. 

crawled out of bed at 10-ish..

my usual "forever" to fall asleep..

woke up several times in between..

I'm going to splurge today because it's my day.

small bite of corned beef hash.. 

3 RedVines.. 

coconut Ferrero Rocher.. 

dark chocolate Lindor truffle.. 

homemade Chicken Alfredo Lasagna.. 

caramel ice cream..

Thursday I was not in the mood to eat but he made dinner so 🤷 

yesterday my body wanted to overcompensate for lack of food on the day prior.. 

haven't decided if I'll cut back on food the days I'm home (I eat dinner those days) or the days I work (I need energy and strength on those days) 

so perhaps ONLY dinner on days off and everything else on work days.. 🤔

spoke to my mum. she called for my birthday and told me about the latest Christmas gift as well as the present from the year prior.. she still has this year's.. but she thinks 2020 accidentally got tossed. it was a blanket of squares that she'd made.  

she also told me about my birthday gift.. 1 came to me, the other to her - but it wasn't how she'd wanted.. she'd sent a cake which was supposed to come with an ice pack and yet it hadn't.. it was pure mush. she was going to have them resend to me but didn't want me to receive the same mush. she ordered something else for me that will come Monday or Tuesday.

I asked about my dad.. she said he's doing fantastic, would never know anything is wrong.. they still go for their daily walks..

I'm thinking maybe she doesn't remember she never told me ? so I'd still never know if they hadn't sent that text message.

watched my 4 episodes of House.

Ladies in Lavender  2004

Confessions of a Sociopathic Social Climber  2005

watched our 3 episodes of Reacher.

now time is up..

4️⃣7️⃣

so long..

farewell..

auf wiedersehen..

good night..

🌙😴💤