October 21st

sleepy today.. i was trying so hard not to fall asleep at work yesterday. working 2 days in a row is just near impossible anymore. if i sat at the desk, i wanted to sleep.. but if i was standing up and walking around, my feet and legs hurt. couldn't win either way. 

so want more sleep today. after working over 12.5 hours yesterday, i still was awake after 2am. then back awake by 8. figured i'd take a nap today -- but it never happened. 

met lori for lunch at big jons, and then to the thrift store for some shopping. that was awesome. i haven't seen her in a long while, and needed to get out of the house for something other than work..

today i feel fat.. fatter than usual.. between work stress -- and my love for sugar.. i know i'm more than i was before i lost weight a year ago.. sound crazy but it's true. october 31st/november 1st i started keto and lost 10 lbs.. which i quickly gained back once i stopped cutting back for myself.. and now, i'm more than i was before i started keto. it's not right. 
hopefully it's an off day.. hopefully..
ugh. bloat perhaps? water weight? i don't get menstrual bloat.. (i don't get menstrual..) so can't determine any other reason.. but i also haven't worn tight(er) clothes in awhile. work clothes are baggy (thankfully!)

Bird on a Wire (1990) 

Maleficent: Mistress of Evil (2019)

Clouds (2020)