my life

I should get back into blogging.. a daily diary of life.

and yet I think of it after the fact. trying to retrace my steps, and remembering what craziness my days have been.. 

last week was a blur of days.. a 12 hour day and 13 hour day..
had a bit of a break last Wednesday and just wanted to sleep my day away -- but I can't do that! my day off would just disappear!
then a 13.5 hour Thursday,  and I was done. I got home with a brain-smashing headache, and gut-wrenching stomach ache. so much so that I couldn't eat,  anything and everything made me nauseous.
Friday morning my world was spinning (literally) and I HAD to take a day off work. I was at 38+ hours at that point, and I could do no more. 
I was a slug all of Friday and I was trying to honestly enjoy it.

Saturday and Sunday were spent with regular weekend tasks.. while trying to savor those moments of inner peace. NOT thinking of work. NOT thinking of stress.
Monday morning came all the same, with the typical headache of my weekend.. with mind-numbing,  mind-ALTERING dizziness. I tried my best to help at work,  but still take sitting breaks and drinking (water)  breaks. 11 hours. yuck.
Tuesday I was thrown back into the whirlwind of a workday,  I had no choice and pretty much NO ONE asked how I was feeling. they didn't care at this point. 12 hours 

it's moments like these that make me hate my life. 
having a 3day weekend at home with my man and our babies was aWeSoMe!
but going back to the reality of work was depressing.

my problem seems to be a mixture of stress, and exhaustion, and dehydration -- yesterday I chugged my canister of 2-1/3c water at 11am, and chugged another 2-1/3c water at 3:15pm.. then refilled my canister but never drank it.. hence my dehydration.. 
I had a smidge of Pepsi at lunch,  and smidge of Pepsi at dinner. I don't entirely count that because it's caffeine and sugar, that basically just "rewinds" my water intake..

and so the headache lives on..